"So long as you live and work, you will be misunderstood; to that you must resign yourself once and for all." - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

This has been a difficult week to be sure.  It has also been a very good week.  A week of polar opposites you might say.  

I have very few regrets in my life for I have learned from every single experience that I have ever had.  The more difficult the life experience, the more I have learned and therefore, have grown.  For that, I am forever grateful. 

Which reminds me, I will have to post at a later date something I had written for FB on "Growth" here in my blog.  

I digress, I like who I have become. As the old saying goes, "With age comes wisdom".  The older I get and the more experiences I have, the more understanding, forgiving and more compassionate of a human being I have become.  Youth is definitely wasted on the young.  Sometimes it may be a year or more before I realize what it was that I had learned from a particular experience but, it never fails me, the lesson is learned.  This week has and is, one of those weeks of lessons to be learned or lessons I will eventually learn as I evolve in my understanding. 

"Knowing is not enough; we must apply!"

~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

With all of that being said, there are times when I think "ignorance is bliss".  There are times I wish, I just never knew. Wish that I never knew how darn good the Costco pizza was or that Chaya Venice has a sushi Happy Hour seven days a week.  Wish I never knew how calculated and premeditated some people are in the abuse of animals that are thinking, feeling and sentient beings themselves.  They KNOW they suffer.  As in my previous post about Lassa.  But, if I never knew, then I would also not be able to help.   

Ignorance may be bliss but knowledge is power.  And if we were to be ignorant about all things painful then we would be living in Utopia, would we not? 

I am reminded of a relationship in my past that... I don't regret having per se, for I DID learn from it and it helped me to become a better person in the process.  But, some things are better left untouched.

**Note: In case you hadn't noticed yet, I love using quotes.  Most of the time they can express what I am thinking and feeling better than I can.  

And here I am thinking "Better friends than lovers".  I liked him so much more when we were just friends during the last four years.  I find myself wishing I could turn back time.  I don't want to know him as I now him today but would rather remember him as the person I knew before.  I believe there really are only two emotions in life.  Love and fear.  And it seems the later is all consuming for him.  It must serve a purpose but for what, I don't know, nor do I care.  It is not for me to learn his lesson. Every human thought and every human action is based in either love or fear.  This particular relationship may be one of the few regrets I have in life; wishing it had remained a friendship rather than what it has become today.  At least until I have figured out what good has come of this.

"THERE COMES A POINT IN YOUR LIFE WHEN YOU REALIZE: Who matters. Who never did. Who won't anymore and who always will.
So, don't worry about the people in your past; There's a reason they didn't make it to your future."

In the mean time, life has moved on and SO MANY good things have happened.  In recent weeks I have reconnected with people from my Myspace days.  Some are old friends and others are networking and business connections.  And still others are friends from 20+ years back that I am thrilled to see again!  In any case, I am very excited to have been back in touch with them all.  Since being back in touch with some of them, there are some AMAZING things in the development for 2011!!!  And I am so excited to see the year unfold.  There are a lot of modeling "projects" in the works.  I won't disclose details but, stay tuned.  It will be an exciting year!!! 

xoxox...